Mmmmm....

Just came back from 7-Eleven. :D Had my hawaiian pizza - cheeze & pineapple and a great time with Ben. Heheh... dirty jokes galore! :P Couldn't eat dinner, my MIL was encouraging me to eat frog's legs, saying they are 3 times as expensive as chicken. Hmmm... nope, still won't eat it. It's a conspiracy. Every time my ma orders frog's legs, my MIL would prepare it also. :P Yucks. Anyway, I sipped the gravy and felt nauseated immediately. Even the baby dussen like it. It WASN'T psychological, I promise.

Just visited my bro's blog (again) and i feel broke. Can't he ask for cheaper stuff? He just needs a new comp coz the old one died. And how I wish I could give him one, which I know wouldn't last very long either - 1 yr? :P well, he wants a 5 megapixel Cybershot digital camera also. Very expensive. We can only give him a harddrive. The rest hopefully the ERS shares would be able to cover. After reading magazine articles about why some couples (who are earning at least $7k together) are not having kids due to the high costs (?), I seriously think we may jolly well just make ends meet. WLE, $7k a month and still not enough? But they got car, house, maid (some don't), credit card bills, etc. Sigh. Teach us to be contented, Lord.

I do hope mum has enough $$ for bro's education. Hopefully no one would rob him of his education. If the person has the heart to, he's pretty self-centred. Sigh. We all have relatives we aren't very proud of. :P

2003's coming to a close and 2004 will be a big change. (At least my weight would be.) Just wondering, do we follow our mother's footsteps in pregnancy? Would we go through roughly the same stuff as our mothers? If so, it's pretty scary. :(

(Almost) Restful Sleep

Realise I've been sleep 6 hr blocks. :P 11-5am, then 5.30 to 11.30am. Would just wake up automatically, go piss, drink water and do strange things. I flossed my teeth this morning at 5. There was just this piece of gunk that just wouldn't be dislodged. U know that feeling when u shut your jaw, there's a teeny weeny bit in between the molars right at the back of your teeth (unless u haven't any). After flossing, went to admire the living being next to me, unconscious to the strange occurences around the room. He's been working real hard, now with the added responsibility of being a soon-to-be father, he's up two notches!

Had a really late lunch, and managed to have a decent conversation with our domestic help. It was quite funny. She was speaking in Bahasa with broken english, while me in English accompanied by equally broken bits of bahasa. We spoke about having a baby, her baby, her loving Chinese husband (*gasp* the old maid said her hubby ill-treated her and ran away with someone else), showed me his photo, as well as a photo of her with an aussie guy who wanted to marry her but she said no (oooh!!), and about how she wants to 'hantam' the old maid for spreading rumours about her. This old maid now sports golden hair (she was spotted at marina square during hari-raya by a relative's maid) and has been spewing nonsense nonstop. Ours is soooo pissed. She also did say that my MIL said that 'if' i have a baby, they'll get another maid to take care of the baby while she manages the house. My mil dussen want to break the news to her yet, she dussen want her telling the whole neighbourhood like the last one did - but now she knows. She did mention that if i have a baby, then another maid would come along, then she would work a shorter no. of yrs it seems. Or was it a longer no. of years? Hmm... dunno.

Watched Practical Magic - Sandra Bullock and Nicole Kidman. The opening song was gorgeous - the kind which makes cheesy wedding videos a bestseller. Well, I felt the bad boyfriend was quite lame to an otherwise not-too-bad story. The ending was pretty predictable - who would expect Sally to go to jail for killing a dracula? Hmm... perhaps - that would then be the twist to the story.

Gosh, another couple of hours before Ben arrives home. The room is still in an utter mess and I am too lazy to clean it up. Gotta copy stuff from C: drive over before the 2k4 benji bug bites me. :P Hmmm... they said near the end of the 3rd trimester, preggos would normally go into a cleaning frenzy. How nice. :) I wanna go swimming!

Horrid Dreams

Another nite of horrid dreams. :P First, I dreamt that we were in church after giving birth, and the baby was so gorgeous. Was reading a mag after the service when Ben glanced at it also - it was some ad. Then this chio babe walked passed, saw the mag and commented her preference (of some order - some self/couple quiz). And this nightmare Ben was so charmed by her independence as displayed by her preference (No, I don't think we need to wait for each other for mealtimes/bedtimes/anyothertimes, he can do it by himself, doesn't need me) and ben's look on the face was, "Wow, I'm amazed. Yes, that definitely puts the pressure off the partner to do whatever he pleases without having to accommodate the other party's schedule/wants/needs." & so this nightmare ben happily chats and walks off with her out of church, leaving me with the baby. Finally, when I managed to catch the lift down to the first level, it was already the last lift. Everyone else was already gone. And the lift took an incredibly loooooOOooong time to get to the first floor. Think I called it "falling into a time lapse" in the dream. When I finally arrived at the first floor, the lift monitor showed, "FSUN" meaning first lift on Sunday morning. It was 6:18am. (When I took the lift, it was Saturday Nite's service). It was scary. There was no panic, nothing, everyone just fell into a deep slumber in the lift while it took its own sweet time. When I got out of the lift, nightmare ben was no where to be seen. Apparently he left with the lady - either sent her back or she went back home with him. Then I heard news that they were getting married that morning! Or had sex or something. Then I called him, and he didn't even ask where I was. Just a sleepy voice on the phone. Told him what happened, and he said that he couldn't come and pick me up coz he had to fly off to somewhere for a Centre's meeting or something. So I suggested meeting him at Changi Airport, told him the plans etc etc and he cut off the phone. I was devastated. Totally shocked at the bus stop and told myself I had to get out of this. Then I woke up. Suddenly my heart started beating so hard, it was scary.

After messing around with food for awhile, I finally drifted back to sleep. (Oh, this interval including telling the real Ben what happened. He was real sweet to comfort me.) Then another strange dream. Dreamt of the girls. Think we were leaving my mum's place, then Mich & I were ready but elise was still putting on her shoes. Then we decided to sabo her by taking one side and running away with it. I could never imagine her fury! She got so pissed that she tore up the other shoes lying around her! Every she was gone, my brother's, my mum's, mine, just gone. She was that pissed.

Argh. Hate these dreams.

A Dreamy Sunday

I couldn't wake up this morning. Tried as I might, I simply couldn't. Ben had to help me out of bed for brunch, and throughout it, i felt like a ragdoll. Had some strange dreams - attacked by an Alsatian (got my ass licked), got stuck at immigration to M'sia (was travelling with the girls) coz my passport had a serial number starting with S.81.... and it wasn't allowed in Malaysia. (??) Funny thing was, as I was stuck there, who but Jamie queued up behind me and started talkin' to me, somewhat reluctantly. She had a strange hairstyle - too gross to mention here. But since Ayumi had it (dream), so she had to too. Hmm. Oh, also dreamt that Ben & I went to this fun island - something like Sentosa but in another country I think, with kangaroos. And I met a friend there. In a couple of other dreams, I dreamt that I wanted to msg/email this friend mentioning what I dreamt. Strange. :P Well, after this marathon, I'm finally awake, and no longer feelin' like a ragdoll. Ben's gone to prepare for the BBQ first, and may pick me up later. Heh, and I have permission to beat up the ben in my dreams. He's a pure bastard - even Ben thinks so. He thinks this ben is an accummulation of all my ex-bfs. Hmmm... I think beating him up sounds good. :P

Satisfying Saturday...

Hmmm... had a great dinner at my aunt's place. Satisfied my cravings - potato & carbonara. Heh. Fantastic dessert too. Finally opened up the Christmas gifts - talk about delayed gratification - we received a nice CD from my cousin - by Josh Groban. We found Track 08 - Broken Vow - so familiar, and I went on a mental recall... thought it was from the movie - Life is a miracle... tried to watch it and found out it was a different song, and continued to squeeze my brainjuice. Finally the climax! Or rather, anticlimax - it was from Meteor Garden II. Sigh. :P Remember those touching moments, and they flashed the Mandarin translation of the song! So dumb! Well, so much for that chase. Hmmm... I miss my bed, and my LG in it! :D

Costs of delivery...

At Mount Elizabeth Hospital...

At Gleneagles Hospital...

At Thomson Medical Centre...

At KK Hospital...

At Mount Alvernia Hospital...

To convince my MIL...

When science presents findings that oppose tradition, how do we justify it? Last nite, my aunt recommended not to take ginger *gasp* during confinement as her ob said that ginger triggers jaundice. Told my MIL, and she's going to 'research' with a lady who's given birth many times. As for our personal research, here's what I found... Newborn Jaundice. Oh, ob said better dun take ginseng also (during pregnancy) coz got steriods. :P Dun like opposing MIL. Sigh.

Birthtalk...

Went to aunt's house for Christmas dinner, had an interesting chat regarding caesarean vs vaginal birth. :P Enuff of that, here's a site to kiv later... Sleepy. *yawn* and hungry. :P

Incredibly funny posts... and definitely serious ones too, right here! Dos & Don'ts During Pregnancy

Merry Christmas! :D

It's Christmas time again. I'm so glad my mother-in-law brought xuan to my aunt's place for a Christmas dinner. Her first, and I pray it won't be her last. Xuan enjoyed himself there, playing with other 2 yr old boys and all. Never seen Ryan fight, heh, that lil' one, he's definitely got my heart! :D Though he was the smallest there among the 3 boys (including wei-en), can't mess with him! Heh, a fighter, as always. :)

Went to the gynae today, was initially saboed by Del & SL two days ago. Told us he was dr freddie yap. :P When i called the clinic, they were like, "Huh?" Well, later on, they confessed that the joke was supposed to be on ben, but i was the butt of it instead. But after seeing him today, he DOES look like a freddie - that frog chocolate that comes in turquoise wrapper with the frog on it! :) heh, at first i thought he looked violent, but after talking to him, both ben & i felt really comfortable. :) Even for my condition, he was cool about it - unlike the previous one who tried to convince me it was nothing but recommended otherwise. :P Did an ultrasound scan today, saw the sac only. Can't detect the kid's heartbeat yet. Going back again in two weeks' time with mummy! Yay! :D

Oh. The nurse took my blood for progesterone test today. Trying to swell my tiny vein, finally after she withdrew the blood, she commented, "wah, your blood very oily huh?" (I was expecting to see that layer of reflection that oil produces but no...) when she showed me, ben & i were grossed out. There were clumps of fat in the syringe! Those bak-kut-teh tiny clumps of fat that float in the soup? Yup, those. Gross. She was quite amazed also, said, "Wah, you so skinny, blood so oily! But donch worry, cholesterol good for the baby!" Now, Ben has to work out. He's dussen have a baby to suck his cholesterol. And the last event - they told me to go get urine sample AFTER I went to the loo. :P Sigh. When we finally exited the hospitall, i had a giddy attack again! :P Sigh - my balance level was thrown off course, and I had to rest in the car after lunch while ben picked up our baby! The iBook! :D Yessh! It's finally here! :D With accessories, and a funky $19 mouse which looks damn cool. :) Heh. He's fondling it now, while I caressing the older one. Heh.

Oh yes, before I forget, HI JAYZ! *wave* Long time old pal for NYJC. a.k.a. yongyong. hmm...

It's Sunday again!

Had a great time in church today. I think the whole church knows... or at least, the church staff. That's what happens when mummy is one of them! Hehe... I love her anyway!

Had a great party last nite, singing, dancing and hairburning and all with candles and carefree/careless hugs. Sooo many people!!! 38 people in pastor mark's house!! :D Vietnamese, Korean, Chinese nationals, malaysians, singaporeans, english... It's really a mixture of cultures! Yup, that's our cell! :D Lots of food also, fwah... too bad I could only eat a little. When we stepped in, Roland the giant smiled at us and said, "We heard!" We smiled, before we could say anything much, he announced, "Audrey's expecting!!!" Was so fun! :D unfortunately, I think the cell's the last to noe,... but really, they were all so sweet! :D

Today's sermon about Barnabas (not commonly known as Joseph)- He's a good man because of wat he saw, felt, said, did, and was. :) That's the summary, and the speaker gave the sermon without his notes! Fwah! :D Very interesting speaker. :)

Miss my bro and my ma. Today's sunday, but no family dinner. :( It's okie, will get together soon. Ah-ma's AT A CHURCH CAMP!!! :D Hallelujah! :D It's been a long journey, but God, You're faithful to Your promises! :D

Will keep updating. Tomorrow is a BRAND NEW DAY! :D

Just surfing around...

The meaning of Abigail
Origin: Biblical
Meaning: The father's joy

Origin: Hebrew
Meaning: Father rejoiced, or father's joy. Gives joy. The intelligent, beautiful Abigail was Old Testament King David's third wife, described as 'good in discretion and beautiful in form.' In the 1916 play The Scornful Lady, Abigail was a lady's maid. (Source)

For LOTR fans... like me! :P

For those who really dun understand what LOTR is about, people like yours truly, this is a great explanation! But to save the trouble, I've cut & pasted it here!

Tolkien for Bengs
So the new Lord of the Rings movie is coming out, and you want to impress some Ah Lian youíre trying to buaya by being able to explain the whole complicated plot with all the funny sounding names and words. You want to seem like youíve actually read all 3 books, but ñ damn suay ñeven The New Paper is too ëcheemí for you. Nehímine! Dun scared! Here is our easy to understand guide to J.R.R. Tolkeinís trilogy, written specially in the conversational style of Ah Bengs, so you can memorize:

THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING

Last time got this short-short person with si-beh hairy legs called Bilbo, lor. He, hor, got this ring that last time belong to some monster.

But then, hor, one day suay-suay the monster want it back, and send his kah kiah to Bilboís house to settle, lah.

But the ring, hor, acherly can make people very powderful. But then, hor, if you wear too long will also kena sai. Si beh hiong one, so better faster go and destroy it, lor.

So Bilboís nephew FrodoÖ Aiyah, dun ask me why their name all so funny, can or not? You ask me, I ask who?

Anyway, Frodo and some peng yew kena arrow to go and destroy the ring.

But donno why also, they must do it in the monsterís home, which is at the end of New Zealand there.

So they walk and walk and walk across New Zealand, lah. And then along the way, got monster chase them, got people want to hoot them, some of them dieded, all sorts of thing, lah.

At the end, Frodo and Sam, his pooi-pooi friend who I think so is a bit ah quah, got separated from the rest.

THE TWO TOWERS

Frodo and Sam meet up with this thing called Gollum, who look like he take too much Slim 10 like that.

At the same time, hor, the other friends get into some powderful hooting session, where, wah lau eh, even the trees can do gongfu one. They all fight over what, I also donno, but quite kan cheong, lah.

THE RETURN OF THE KING

In the end, Frodo and his peng yew all win leow, lah. Arbuthen?

- This condensed version of J.R.R. Tolkeinís Lord of the Rings trilogy was brought to you courtesy of the Coxford Singlish Dictionary.

Surfing around...

Wow,... the pictures in this site now really mean something! Heh! :D If I'm not mistaken, our little one is now like this! :D


7 weeks - Facial features are visible, including a mouth and tongue. The eyes have a retina and lens. The major muscle system is developed, and the unborn child practices moving. The child has its own blood type, distinct from the mother's. These blood cells are produced by the liver now instead of the yolk sac.

Exciting! :) God, please continue knitting this baby! :D

Some other nice sites...
Pregnancy.org
Pregnancy & Birth

Argh...

Tummy has been giving me problems. Ate porridge for dinner last night and puked all out. The usual tummy problem coz had lots of gas inside and a headache to accompany the gas. But once the gas is out, the headache's mostly gone. Mum says I might be really anxious, and told me to relax. Ben gave me a nice massage last nite, felt really loved.

Found out from him mum that his aunt wasn't really pleased when she wasn't seated at the main VIP table during the wedding dinner. :P But she messaged me this morning to congratulate me. :)

The wedding dinner photos are here. But they are in FlipAlbum, can't see the jpg files for themselves. Need decoder, Ben says. 363 pictures altogether, developing 150 (in package) and digital images will be given. Have to pay $100 for the remaining 213 digital images. Fwah. And the flipalbum is valid for only 6 days. After that the program can't be opened anymore. :P

Praise the Lord!

I'm going to be a mummy! Praise the Lord for His goodness! :) Had a dream as i woke up on Sunday morning - dreamt that i was testing for pregnancy and i saw a '+' together with a '|' or a '-'... can't remember the second line, then i got so excited (in the dream), I started telling everyone! Can't remember who I told.

Then today... :) Tested in the morning, coz my menstral cycle really late... and when i saw it, I was like, "OMG!" :D (I even forgot to flush!) Ben was still lazing in bed, and when he saw, his eyes were SO big and so was his smile! :D Gave me a really big hug! Wow! It was a great morning. Even self-declare half-day off... heheh... took me to Dr Khoo clinic to confirm. Told him that they'd also use a kit, hehehe.... which they did, and he was like, WLE. But for that confirmation, it was worth it. :)

Hmm... no wonder yesterday's mee-kia tasted horrible, and i've been feeling nauseous. Argh. I still love food! But i wanna be a funky mummy, not some bloated whale awashed on the shore. I've seen some like that, sit in the hospital chair, dunno whether supported by the elbow or the butt. I really couldn't tell...

Must pray for smooth pregnancy, and God will protect this child! Praise the Lord! :D

Yippee!!

We got the Apple iBook G4 800 today!!! Yippee!! Heheh... after many months of being tempted by the Fujitsu 5010, we've finally settled for this after seeing mich's and the price lah, of course. Bye bye Vaio... Heheh... but i'm macNewbie. Yesh... :D

Home Sweet Home...

I'm finally home. Showered and clean. Didn't bring a spare towel to the camp, so i stank from last nite till now. :P Camp was fun, did an impromptu act... hahah... like a seow char bor! Joyce is a really good actress... quite amazed by her. Ben's really good too. I'm so in awe of Joey. She's like an angel! Gosh! Can just watch her all day... patient, kind, believes in people, soft-spoken yet clear in speech... Oooh. Got potential to go far. :)

Came back from Colmar Tropicale. Interesting trip, although apparently we missed the Rabbit Park. Thought it'd be smelly, but it's supposed to have many many rabbits! Started the journey on 11/12/2003, around 6.50pm. We arrived there, (after an hour's journey up and down Genting just to change bus) around close to 4pm. Then checked out the place, had an early dinner after a lovely chat at The French Bakery, then went to their dinner place around 7 plus. 3 adults for RM120, but was charged 2 adults and 1 child - RM$100! :) Nice waiter to give us that discount. Some food was good, others so-so. :P Hmm... Didn't sleep well, missed Ben like mad. Well, throughout the whole trip lah. Gotta go, will blog later, hopefully.

Good day...

Claire came to the centre today. She's a real darling. Helped the KC volunteers to prepare for their lessons - fruits dipped in chocolate, mashed potatoes and ice-blended milo! :D The kids enjoyed themselves thoroughly. Although they didn't get to make those stuff, they really sat through the whole session, from 2.30 to 5pm! Diana was really well-behaved, and so were some of the rest. Ben didn't have to come out to holler at them! Praise the Lord! :D Heh, and he got his work done. Mission accomplished. And he was really glad about it too! :D The food's yummy, and I'm still craving for the mashed potatoes. Disgusting. Heh. :P

Went to mamah's house for dinner today. Thank God. Ben's out with the guys, planning the wedding dinner. He's finally getting his re-charge after many weeks of non male-bonding. This time round, they've taken a lot more initiative. The other nite, we actually had an argument coz he thought i de-valued his pals due to them 'shirking responsibility' after the church wedding. Truth was, he dismissed them coz all of them thought the show had ended. Didn't expect the mess afterwards. It could have been because Ben thought he could shoulder everything, and everyone else thought everyone else was helping hm. A lot of non-communication and assumption made. So tonight, i think it's gonna be different. Anyways, I told him that Mich would be co-ordinating, and need manpower. So they'll be working with u gal. :D

Received 607 photo duplicates to sort out this evening. Copies of the church wedding. Let's hope i can get them done.

Oh, reading 'The Surrendered Wife' by Laura Doyle. Excellent book for a person like me. Learning alot. Somehow seeing mich's attitude toward her man shows me that i've a lot to learn from her. :) *kowtow* Heh. :D

Anywayz, am glad for this 2 frenships. Really has changed my mind about havin' girlfrenz. Thought it was something i could never do, nor have. Some personality disorder which i may secretly have that repels girls. Hah. But, since both elise & mich are pretty immuned to it, i'm blessed. :D

*Hugz*. I'm glad I'm alive. God is good.

Another day...

Wah... tired. But today has been much better. I'm learning alot, and really think that Ben's my Giving Tree. I hope not to be the boy, but instead be one in return as well.

Lately, or rather, eversince dunno when, i've been having vivid dreams almost every night. Pretty awesome, yet at times exhausting.

Well, too tired to blog, and just longing for my bed. Heh. Today I got Rexson to read abit. Praise the Lord! :D

Juggling different hats...

Can't believe it's friday again. Had a good time at cell, got questions going and found out that a bunny can really be a terror. That stufid thing killed the telephone and the airconditioning system by chewing through the wires. Argh. So it was a hot mtg. Heh. Well, the camp's coming up and seems like the dinner arrangement is barely ready. I dun even have the mood to go through the dinner. Wat more fanciful plans. Sigh. I've also realised the true meaning of SUBMISSION. It's a whole new ball game for me. I've realised that my opinions dun really count especially in the workplace, where I have to submit to the authoritarian style, esp when it's the hubby. So, I'm learning. It's not easy, and gosh, i really prefer to be the wife than the colleague. Every small thing becomes a source of discontentment and struggle. I prefer life after work. At least it's less volatile, and he spends time doing paperwork (sometimes) on the comp. If not, i'm on the comp.

I still cannot believe it's friday already. Tmw's supposed to be day one of new cycle. Let's see what happens. Perhaps I'm too stressed, so it's taking its own sweet time. :P Next week monday, go zoo from 8am to 6pm. At least his colleague won't be there to defy him, so he's less stressed. Also, he'll get to spend time with the children, which I think has been quite hard for him. Well, I'll just try my best.

Come tuesday, and we're off to the camp. Wonder how it's going to be like. Lookin' at the indemnity form, it's quite scary. I dunno if i'll be presentable on the 9th. Oh, an update:

7. Kyler & Blanca (PMC)
8. Ps Mark, Aye Lan & Faithe
9. Esther
10. Roland and Chellie
11. Andrew and Charlotte

Must send Ki'ern's card out by tmw. If not i die. :P

Then the week after - dinner. Then Malaysia! :D The hols are whizzing by so quickly. And the results will be out soon. Sigh. Dunno how's it's going to be. Dun care lah.

Still thinkin' if i should return to PCS. Well, on a happier note, STAR RUNNER is out!! Hahahahh!!! Hm... no more girly rebonded hair for Vanness! So, when uh? :D Heh. Was thinkin' of rentin' the VCD next time instead. Scared to spend precious $$ on movies. Rather rent it from the auntie-vcd-rental-shop-down-the-street. Cheapo. Yup, me.

MIA II

Paish... MIAed again. It's been bz... made cookies with the children from the student care yesterday, and they enjoyed it. Quite a saga b4 that, and got personally affected after that. Sigh. Dowanna talk about it. Haven't been touching the computer, but busy with dunnowhat nonetheless. Will be at the centre on Mons, Weds and Fris. Other than that, I think I'll be at home bumming and tinkering around the room. This place is bloody messy. Sigh. Well, today's Thursday, and come next tues I'll be off to an ezekiel camp! Wonder if it'll be like the bones in the valley. Heh.

Haven't been around for so long that Flobble took itself off. Well, too lazy to go reapply.

Wedding dinner's in 2 weeks time. Right. Argh. The bride has 1 1/2 tables of guests. The rest of the world? Dunno lah. So far, my personal guest list...

1. Elise
2. Michelle
3. Carina & family (4)
4. Katherine (NIE)
5. Eve (& partner. Jason is it?)
6. Ki'ern and HP

That's it. Those people who are pretty significant to me.

Anywayz,... a certain movie endorsed by Channel 8 is coming out I think. Heh! :D

MIA

Paiseh... eversince i had been terrorised by some track, i haven't been blogging. Okie, lame excuse. But anywayz, buzy buzy buzy... went to the gynae yesterday, not fantastic news. Anyway, gotta boost up my immune system and return for another check. :P bummer. But I believe God's in control. Quite a scary time, don't like to go gynae alone. Past three times it hasn't been fantastic. Sigh. Each time i go, I feel more and more alone.

Tonite's food tasting at Imperium. Sleepy. Ben wasn't feeling well last night. Finished 1000 & 1500 pcs jigsaw puzzles since the hols started. surfed for their pictures but couldn't find them. but check this out...


Pretty right?? :)

Tired, wanna take a nap, but scared no time. Have been going through friendster, and found a couple of people. Tired... wanna nap.

Life is a Miracle

I kept crying throughout the whole show. Siang E.E. lent me the DVD.


It's a true story of a woman who suffers from this tumour growth at the base of her spine, caused by the colon cancer she had 3 years ago. It's evangelistic, and has reminded me that life is indeed short, that everyday is a miracle. When we lament about the quality of life, we are actually dissatisfied with the way we are running the race marked out for us.

Hebrews 12:1
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

And may I, before my last breath say:

2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

Hiaks!

Completed my revision, and just realised the module for this exam is 3AUs! *faint* Well, about 70% ready... have to memorise the chart, do abit of exam papers here and there, scrutinise language everywhere (Ben faints again), and SMILE!!! It help in the confidence arena. :D Help... I need to remember the transcription rules and everything else. Last year's eae101 paper was so farnie. IT WAS THE EXACT SAME PAPER AS THE PREVIOUS YEAR'S. No joke. People who didn't do the past year paper was seriously cursing and swearing. It was pure dumb... but the lecturer was the BEST!!! He made me fall in love with English, and now to complete the cycle, I've got Paul the dodo to make me dislike it. Coz he's just him. Argh. Pui.

Okie, back to work. 4pm tomorrow and I'm a free woman. Heh. Not really though. :D But I liek...

Today's Devotion

James 1:19-27

My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.

Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it--he will be blessed in what he does.
If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

Hurray!

Yay... i've finished the first section of my revision - Functional Grammar. Hopefully I know what's happening. haha... Well, have to do past year paper then see my progress. Did laundry and joy's table mat flew away. dunno how also lah. Yup, we're going on a trip!! :) Finally... on the 11th, after the wedding dinner. Ben's got his student care centre camp on that day too, so both of us won't be around. Hmm... gotta remember to put Joy at my mum's place.

Gotta go shower then go for round two of grammar. HELP!!!

A renewed devotion

Through the rush of so many events and distractions, I have taken my eyes off the cross. There was even one period where I didn't want to look at it. No more passion, just being mechanical instead. Well, since I'm a Christian, I thought, I need to go church, go cell, do the necessary stuff. But God in his faithfulness convicted my heart. A sister in Christ, Ashley, prayed for me and spoke words of encouragement. Ps John Elliot from NZ came and spoke about Proverbs 30:18-19.

Proverbs 30:18-19
"There are three things that are too amazing for me,
four that I do not understand:
the way of an eagle in the sky,
the way of a snake on a rock,
the way of a ship on the high seas,
and the way of a man with a maiden."

I have always been intrigued by this passage, and God shone His light on it during service. My life is changed once again. A renewed commitment. A renewed devotion.

Eagle in the sky
- sensitive to the air current -- sensitive to the prompting of the Holy Spirit
- seeing things from above -- seeing things from God's perspective
- soaring in the air -- mounting on wings like eagles (Isa 40)

Snake on a rock
- consistency (apparently wherever u put the snake, its temperature dussen change... hmmm...) amidst life's highs and lows

Ship on high seas
- moving forward - a spectacular sight!
- discovery
- not meant for harbours
- pull up ur anchors

Man with a maiden
- passion
- intimacy
- desire

It has been personally meaningful for me. Will share more when I take my next break. :)

God's Sacrifice Redefined

Abraham sacrificed his son, Issac.
God, the Father, sacrifice His son, Jesus.

Abraham laid his son Issac on the altar of Mount Moriah.
God left his son Jesus on the altar of Mount Calvary.

Issac did not know that he was to be sacrificed.
Jesus knew that He was.

Issac carried the flame.
Jesus carried the cross.

Abraham lifted his knife towards Issac.
God let man lift their weapons against Jesus.

God is faithful.

In place of Issac, God gave a ram.
In place of a relationship with us, God gave His son.

Don't waste it.

You Are Dreamy Sexy!

You Are Dreamy Sexy!

Your sex appeal stems from your constant dreamlike state.

Not only do you think about fairy tales, you have the ways of a fairy princess.

You're sweet, soft manner attracts similarly dreamy guys

And your natural girly beauty lures all men in, so be discriminating!



What Kind of Sexy Are *You*?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

I am type D. Heh.

Qn 1.

Late at night, u r partying with a friend of the opposite sex. If you don't leave now, u would miss the last bus. What would u do?

a. who cares.....continue to party -- go to Qn 2

b. ask if he would send you home -- go to Qn 3

c. say "good-bye" to him & run after the bus --go to Qn 4


Qn 2.

While having a meal with a friend, u see that what he/she had ordered seemed quite delicious. Would u ask to have a taste of his/her food?

a. yes --- go to Qn 5

b. no --- go to Qn 6


Qn 3.

U saw something nice while shopping but u don't have the means to buy it. Would u...

a. Shrugged your shoulders & forget it.---go to Qn 7

b. go ahead & flash your credit card ---go to Qn 6


Qn 4.

You have a job offer that is paying better than your present job. You would...

a. its every man for himself. Type your resignation letter now- go to Qn 8.

b. the present boss is treating you well. Stay cos of loyalty! -- go to Qn 7.


Qn 5.

Your views on school regulations are...

a. would never compromise to them. --- go to Qn 9.

b. see it there is loopholes & try to get thru them. --- go to Qn 10.

c. would definitely keep to them ! --- go to Qn 12.


Qn 6.

A person from the opposite sex expresses his/her love for you. You would.....

a. smile & think highly of your charms --- go to Qn 9.

b. reject him/her & keep a distance --- go to Qn 10.

c. run off without even answering! --- goto Qn 12.


Qn 7.

You are in your boyfriend/girlfriend's bedroom & u see a photo of him/her with his/her old flame. You would...

a. see & forget cos its all in the past. --- go to Qn 10.

b. get real mad & leave the room. --- go to Qn 11.


Qn 8.

Would u rewrite a lecture note again cos your handwriting is untidy?

a. yes --- go to Qn 12.

b. no --- go to Qn 11.


Qn 9.

When wearing a pair of mini skirts/ shorts,what would u choose as the top ?

a. a tight fitting tee --- go to Qn 13.

b. a loose fitting tee --- go to Qn 14.


Qn 10.

On a tour, the tour guide specifically tell u not to venture to a certain area cos its dangerous. Would u out of curiosity, go ahead without listening to him?

a. yes --- go to Qn 13.

b. no --- go to Qn 14.


Qn 11.

When out with a friend of the same sex, would you hold hands & walk?

a. yes ---- go to Qn 15.

b. no ---- go to Qn 16.


Qn 12.

Wearing a newly bought swimsuit, would u feel especially eye-catching' & 'sharp' when walking by the pool?

a. yes --- go to Qn 14.

b. no --- go to Qn 16.


Qn 13.

Are u the impulsive type ? Always acting on the instant u get the idea without thinking carefully?

a. yes ---- Type A

b. no ---- go to Qn 14.


Qn 14.

Do u still maintain friendship with your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?

a. yes ---- Type B

b. no ----- go to Qn 15.


Qn 15.

Everytime u pack for a tour, you would always end up packing more than what u need?

a. yes ---- go to Qn 16.

b. no --- Type C


Qns 16.

Do you mind sharing the same cup with others?

a. yes --- Type D

b. no ---- Type C


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NOW....for the results !!!

TYPE A --- 90% FLIRT

You fall in love easily most of the time getting trapped in a triangular relationship. Adding to the fact that u do not commit to your partner, u enjoy having suitors. To put it simply.

YOU ARE FAR FROM FAITHFUL.


TYPE B --- 70% FLIRT

You are partially flirtatious by nature. You enjoy being pampered & pursued by others so occasionally you would harbour the thoughts of 'stepping on 2 boats'.

BUT...as you are sensitive to your partner, you do try to restrain yourself.


TYPE C --- 40% FLIRT

You are shy by nature and have only a small circle of friends. These attributes to the fact that you would not have a high chance of getting trapped in a triangular relationship.


TYPE D --- 0% FLIRT

You have high morality & its against infidelity. Whoever is with you is the most fortunate but pray that your partner does not belong to any of the above group!

Phew!

Okie... done... My archive's gone cuckoo tho'. First entry was in July, but dunno why it goes back to April. (Actually it doesn't.) Help. :P

Argh!

Should have listened to my mother's advice. Never make major decisions after 11pm. I've just screwed up my blog template. Gotta redo everything again. :P

Another computer generated birthday card... this time from the Teacher's Union...

Ben's doin' the laundry. I'm blessed. Had dinner at Sze Chuan Dou Fu restaurant at UOB Plaza. Great food... situated on the 60th floor. Overlooks Boat Quay. Had a walk with my in-laws and sis-in-law and bf along Boat Quay after dinner. First birthday dinner with them for me, and first for a long time for Ben. He's happy, so is his mummy. :)

How touched... Webshots sent me a birthday card... heh.

What's in a name?

A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
D You have trouble trusting people.
R You are a social butterfly.
E You are a very exciting person.
Y You cause a lot of trouble.

B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
E You are a very exciting person.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
J Jealousy.
I You are always smiling and making others smile.



Instructions : What you do is find out what each letter of your name means. Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU.

P/S : If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.


For example : ALI

A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
I You are always smiling and making others smile.


Descriptions :


A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.

B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.

C You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it.

D You have trouble trusting people.

E You are a very exciting person.

F Everyone loves you.

G You have excellent ways of viewing people.

H You are not judgemental.

I You are always smiling and making others smile.

J Jealousy.

K You like to try new things.

L Love is something you deeply believe in.

M Success comes easily to you.

N You like to work, but you always want a break.

O You are very open-minded.

P You are very friendly and understanding.

Q You are a hypocrite.

R You are a social butterfly.

S You are very broad-minded.

T You have an attitude, a big one.

U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.

V You have a very good physical and looks.

W You like your privacy .

X You never let people tell you what to do .

Y You cause a lot of trouble.

Z You're always fighting with someone.

Don't quote me on this one... I got it from my bro...

Matthew Shen Coney at 16 months

Caught Mattie with my Nokia 7250... looked like he just got up... he can walk and talk now! A very cheeky boy!

"What's granny's name?" "Shiew Lan." (Smiles)
"What's mummy's name?" "Meeshell..." (Smiles broader)
"What's daddy's name?" "Meeshell!" (Smiles extremely cheekily).

He knows it's Michael.

Happi berfdae to we,
Happi berfdae to we,
Happi berdae to bendrey,
Happi berdae to we...

Ben's birthday present - 75 ft of racing track too! With 2 cars, one recharging station and hours of fun!! :D

It's a happy day.

Spent the later part of the evening - 11plus - with my in-laws and sis in law also... laughing, joking, a never b4 event. And we're even going to celebrate Ben's birthday! Praise the Lord! :D

Cell was fine... LS during then coz of the detox massage i got from Criselle yesterday. Filipino lady, nursing undergrad, single-again with 2 kids, worked in Saudi, Taiwan and Singapore. Snobbish looking, but a really nice lady. Had an enjoyable time. She's sooooOOooo good... I mentioned that usually when we go spa, people would bombard us with membership packages when we're barely done with the session. But this is one where I'd sign up willingly! Therefore the LS.

Ashley prayed for me. It was wonderful. God reassured me of my makeup through her. That I was a blessing to people around me. Today I prayed that I'd be a blessing and not a curse, especially to my new family. Things didn't look really good this afternoon, and I thought I'd blown it.

Thus, thank God for tonite. It was wonderwonderful.

It's great.

It just got more complicated... forget it... argh!

PENGZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The maid saga continues. My MIL found a photo album of the old maid - a collection of bits and pieces here and there... and I saw one of her in MY DRESS!!!! ARGH!!!! IN OUR ROOM SOME MORE!!!!

and the album came with a vcd on bestiality, with some woman and a horse. *PUKE*dun think my MIL knew what it was exactly about... just some naked woman bending over. ARGH!!!!

Sigh...

Found one of my frens from Perth online... she is one naturally voluptuous babe! 25, just gave birth to a baby boy, and she's one of the most creative persons I've ever met.

Subtle

You like it when eroticism has been built up to such a level that it only takes a sexy look to make you feel weak at the knees. Sexual games really appeal since, for you, good sex happens in the brain.

The subtle lover is a master of eroticism because a subtle mind can take hold of fine nuances of suggestion and allow them to develop into something creative and different. You are fortunate in having such a distinctive imagination linked with the ability to understand your unique and special sexual impact. The downside is that as a subtle lover you may come to require elaborate fantasies for total satisfaction. A major task in life, therefore, is to discover a partner whose inventiveness and imagination match up - a mind and personality that compliment your own. This will not always be easy, but it's definitely worth holding out for the right person. Together you can explore an exciting world of luscious sensuality and pure eroticism that most couples desire but never attain.


How Erotic a Lover are You?
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need to rush off to school but nooo... still blogging. raining, need to do laundry. Joy is botak. have completed the ece project. si bei chio. dowan to pass it up coz got my laogong's signature design all over. hah. it's raining, how the hell am i supposed to cart it to school without wetting that masterpiece??? ArGH. Got to in and out the car, put the backside to the house and put in boot.

Need ur comments - a tut mate asked me for my notes - this i seriously feel is taking advantage - in class and lecture always fall asleep but wants As. He knows i take and make additional notes besides the weekly homework.

"Can I borrow your maths file from u to zap? I dunno what's going on eversince after statistics."
"Erhm... i think should be okie, but my file consists mainly of homework that we all have done." (I seriously thought so.)
"What about this?" (Pointing to my freshly copied notes - i paid attention this lesson. I think i seriously wrote good stuff.)
"Oh, but I don't do this regularly, just once in a while when I pay attention."
"Never mind, it's okie, got your notes can already."

A while later, I thought and I asked him...

"Why don't you get a copy from Thana? She jots notes down every week."
"Erhm...*murmur*"

He knows I get As for my maths, & he wants the As too. Dunno why I'm tight over this, usually I'll just lend, but maybe because it's not the first time he's borrowed stuff from me? (and not take care of it?) The last time, he asked to borrow my special ed textbooks which i paid over $60 for, bloody pced almost the whole stuff, and when it came back, it was in a bad shape. Sigh.

COMMENTS??

You are the good ol' classic sunset. Romantical and serene, you're genuine nature will guarentee you an incredible amount of pain in this life as you realize how many phony hypocrites are out there. Sooner or later you'll decide to stop hating them and start helping them. Don't expect anything, give your love without abandon and you will reap countless rewards.

You are not greedy. Thank you for your flexibility and willingness to compromise. Yeah you can be stubborn, but for the most part, you're willing to hang loose.

Know this...that no matter what, you are loved.


-~Which SUNSET are you? (v.2)~-
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I will survive!!!! I think... will blog if time permits. at least I'm not procrastinating... that much. THe Angels are great. Watching Full Throttle now. Gotta rush ECE assignment due on FRI. Argh. Think another thursday is out again. sigh. anyway got cell tmw nite. Really hope to see e gals soon. It's been a long hard time. But every1's super busy. :P Hugz anyway. :D

TOMORROW IS D-DAY! ECS201 Presentation. okie. back to work.