Friday, April 25, 2003

Dear God,

Hope U surf the internet and find this post. The wedding is less than 2 months away, 57 days to be exact. Right now the planning's pretty smooth, except for mum. Sigh, I think she thinks she's selling me. Argh. Lord, help me to be a fillial daughter and honour her, Lord. Isn't the wedding about the union of two whom You have created? Why does it seem like the spotlight seems to have fallen on her? Sigh. I don't want to walk through this wedding and then regret not having a wedding which both Ben & I will enjoy. But, what kind of wedding do we really want? Lord, I know that Your hand is upon this relationship and this relationship has really gone through a lot. I firmly believe that You want us to be together. First it was that HUGE hurdle we had to cross but subsequently drew us closer together, now with SARS and more importantly, my mum. How can I help her? When does it seem like she wants my wedding to revolve around her? Lord, please unite this family together, and let this wedding work for the good of those who love You, who are called according to Your purpose. Teach me how to draw boundaries and to place pegs that will benefit everyone. At this point in time, I just wish that my dad was back here, so that I can tell him about mum, and then he can talk to her. Right now, no one is able to advise her on her role and she's doing the wedding based on her 'experience'. HELP! Lord, You are my Father. Please talk to her. I can't talk to her, or she'll feel hurt.