Had a great day. :)

Got to school on time :D and had 4 hours of lessons. Couldn't find clothes to wear in the morning, so wore skirt - in the end got compliments! :) hehehe... Understood functional grammar much better during the tutorial session. Dr Wee Bee Geok IS good. :) Went Amore for Low Impact with Elise... met a girl from NIE there... can't remember her name =P, she went for class also.

Pigged out at Lips, had a great time listening to Elise's family. God has blessed her with so much... that money cannot buy. It's wonderful, the simple pleasures of life, even though at times her dad appears auntie or when her mum wears her funky white sequinned sandals/slippers to the market... hahahah...

Read the God's Little Instruction Book for Students today... really made me re-analyse the choices I've made,... esp regarding friends, and 04/08's post. Although things haven't changed much, my perspective has... Ben has been very encouraging...

In fact, we had an excellent heart-to-heart talk tonite... Really prayed and asked God for intimacy in marriage. It's not something that 'happens' naturally coz it's not going to. Both of us have been under tonnes of pressure, in fact, even pressured for intimacy. That's irony. However, the Lord revealed to us that the 'distance' between us started after the honeymoon because of a silly thing I did. I borrowed 2 copies of New Man from my bro. Really bad choice... Ben thought that everything had been great at the honeymoon, and suddenly I borrowed 2 copies of New Man? He was deeply hurt and humiliated... and even believed that he wasn't good enough, that he'll never be good enough. My heart broke after he said that.

Finally, it was all out... the root of the pressure... the Lord is good... because as soon as he said that, both of us respectively felt the burden lift, and the chains break loose. He thought I was really dissatisfied with him... in fact, all these came when all the blame grabbing/pushing stopped... and we decided to work towards a solution for the tension between us. And then i shared about how i 'saw' him last time... a guy of passion... when passion arises within him, he's a strong current! He flows and is in full control... makes the room spin and just lets himself go with the flow... in whatever aspect... art, etc ;). That's the Benji I've known. He has an artistic temperament, and together with that passion, he's harnassing himself with newfound discipline.

So for the past few weeks, under pressure to perform, passion trickled at best. Really must pray for the Lord to teach us marital intimacy. He created marriage, and it has been warped by the devil. I believe that if God said what He'd created is GOOD, then it must be pretty good! :) Even though Satan entices mankind with illicit union, he keeps mum about CONSEQUENCES that God says would definitely take place. Satan wants us to think that sex within the boundaries of marriage is mundane & boring, simply because he's in a life-long battle with God! Sadly, many people are tempted to taste a bit of sex even their bodies are fully developed. That totally screws their surprise. It's like u've got a Christmas present, and it's promised to SATISFY... yet because of that curiosity, u take a peep. Just a peep, didn't open the package, didn't use the gift. Just peeped. THAT'S IT. You've successfully screwed up the surprise u're supposed to have. And u think, "Huh, that's it?"

Just to leave with this statement from Holy Sex by Terry Wier, "Sexual lust may begin with the body, but the fulfillment of sexual desire involves our minds and emotions at ta very deep level. Sexual union between a man and woman results in a powerful emotional bond between them, the richness of which has been mined for centuries by countless poets and singers. This strong emotional bond between husband and wife helps them to withstand the stresses and pains of life, particularly the struggles of raising children." Also, "the drive for sexual union is a powerful motivator of human behaviour; it must be strong to form a strong family unit."

Sex is not dirty. ;) God created it, and it can only be fully appreciated within the boundaries of marriage as designed by God. It is not only a physical desire, but a union of emotions, spirit and soul. God's intended oneness...