16 weeks into the pregnancy - that's 4 months already. I thank God that it's been so far, so good. Except for being fussy coz I can't keep food down and turn blue in the face... :P Great supportive husband who's been shouldering all the household responsibilities AND the DOG. Sigh. Really hope I could help him more.
Seeing him being stretched at work like that hurts me. Yet I know that through this stretching he becomes better, and hopefully not bitter.
Sunday, February 29, 2004
Saturday, February 28, 2004
Monday, February 23, 2004
First Day of Practicum
Closed to being bored to tears... argh... wasn't feeling too well this morning becoz of some korean instant noodles i ate last nite... The seasoning was kao kao and by the end of the bowl, I was feeling so sick. Went to puke big time and spine was aching from all that seasoning. Wished I could just pass out and not feel anything. We were so worried for our baby, coz all this puking isn't very comfortable for him/her I guess.
Woke up still burping all the acid out. Eeks. Really uncomfortable. Then went to Ben's workplace. Took a nap and OVERSLEPT. By the time i took lunch and went to sch, I was the last trainee there, and ended up sharing a table with the fella. Sigh. Now 8 weeks I gotta see him everyday. Sigh. He was quite puzzled as to why Jamie won't share a table with me. Hah. Well, she and I are on talking terms now, but only in group settings. Dun really tok much when it's one-to-one. Well, still, there's an improvement.
Saw my ex-CTs today. Delightful and warm welcome. Felt good seeing them, they were really happy for the new addition! :D They actually attended the church wedding... and esp for one of them who counselled me during the tough period prior to the wedding. She's really very very happy for me. And I was so glad to see her. :)
The kids were really surprised to see the trainee teachers back. Hahah... it was quite interesting actually. First, I'm no longer known as Ms Chua. Was introduced by the VP as Mdm Chua (upon my request) and back in class, I became Mrs Teo coz my CT, Ms Lim, deemed that Mdm Chua was too old for me. Hahha. :) My CTs are NICE!!!!!!! :D PRAISE THE LORD! Wow. I was so scared initially. But it's good. Thank God.
Well, after going to 5D, some kids who were formerly from Jamie's class was disappointed not to see her there... hehehe... and my face is the unfriendly sort lah... so they were like, "Shucks." Heh. Lesson was sedating. I almost fell asleep. Tried my best to pay attention. Found out that there are actually three types of direct speech. Wow. I never knew that.
Supposed to go for 1 hr of Math and Science respectively, but my other CT had quite a bit of housekeeping to do with the class so I was excused. So my day starts tomorrow.
And Ms Lim wants me to observe her for this week, then CA, then she observes me for next week before my sup comes over. And she even offered to loan the laptop for me!!!! Woohoo! :D I feel so loved! The other trainees were really shocked and they wondered why she was doing that. Hah. Coz the comp in the class cannot work lah. So gotta use the laptop lor.
Anyway, it's a struggle between appearing to maintain control of the class vs getting the pupils involved in class. Not that they go out of control when they are responsive. Just that u use that level and compare the 'level of control when pupils are sedated', it's not a very fair comparison lah. Dunno lah.
Going to snake abit. Hehe. ;)
Woke up still burping all the acid out. Eeks. Really uncomfortable. Then went to Ben's workplace. Took a nap and OVERSLEPT. By the time i took lunch and went to sch, I was the last trainee there, and ended up sharing a table with the fella. Sigh. Now 8 weeks I gotta see him everyday. Sigh. He was quite puzzled as to why Jamie won't share a table with me. Hah. Well, she and I are on talking terms now, but only in group settings. Dun really tok much when it's one-to-one. Well, still, there's an improvement.
Saw my ex-CTs today. Delightful and warm welcome. Felt good seeing them, they were really happy for the new addition! :D They actually attended the church wedding... and esp for one of them who counselled me during the tough period prior to the wedding. She's really very very happy for me. And I was so glad to see her. :)
The kids were really surprised to see the trainee teachers back. Hahah... it was quite interesting actually. First, I'm no longer known as Ms Chua. Was introduced by the VP as Mdm Chua (upon my request) and back in class, I became Mrs Teo coz my CT, Ms Lim, deemed that Mdm Chua was too old for me. Hahha. :) My CTs are NICE!!!!!!! :D PRAISE THE LORD! Wow. I was so scared initially. But it's good. Thank God.
Well, after going to 5D, some kids who were formerly from Jamie's class was disappointed not to see her there... hehehe... and my face is the unfriendly sort lah... so they were like, "Shucks." Heh. Lesson was sedating. I almost fell asleep. Tried my best to pay attention. Found out that there are actually three types of direct speech. Wow. I never knew that.
Supposed to go for 1 hr of Math and Science respectively, but my other CT had quite a bit of housekeeping to do with the class so I was excused. So my day starts tomorrow.
And Ms Lim wants me to observe her for this week, then CA, then she observes me for next week before my sup comes over. And she even offered to loan the laptop for me!!!! Woohoo! :D I feel so loved! The other trainees were really shocked and they wondered why she was doing that. Hah. Coz the comp in the class cannot work lah. So gotta use the laptop lor.
Anyway, it's a struggle between appearing to maintain control of the class vs getting the pupils involved in class. Not that they go out of control when they are responsive. Just that u use that level and compare the 'level of control when pupils are sedated', it's not a very fair comparison lah. Dunno lah.
Going to snake abit. Hehe. ;)
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Postdated V Day
I landed on a floor higher than I thought. Hehehe...
Was swept off to a gorgeous weekend @ RCMS.
Drool... really great way to unwind after horrible deadlines and worries about putting undue stress on my baby... both in fact - the big one and the lil' one inside.
Ben redeemed our one night's stay coz of the wedding @ imperium, and boy are we glad we didn't use it on the dinner nite. Dunno how couples who hold their weddings @ hotels fully enjoy their stay. Check in at 12, busy busy busy, then dinner, then get harassed by friends, then oversleep the next morning. Eeeps.
We indulged ourselves in this...
Okie, so those two aren't us, but can't host the photos up. CENSORED!! hahahaha.... ;)
Well, before checking in, we went to the gynae. Baby stuffed itself in a corner. Looks like the both of us sleeping. I think the amount of stress must have shocked him/her that it needs to find security and comfort in a cozy corner. Hehehe... kicking & kicking throughout the scan. Everything's okie, baby apparently is a lil' long for its age but doc says it's okie. Well, look at daddy and mummy. I'll be in trouble if it's short. HEhehe.... but paternal granny and granpa not very tall, so possible also. Well, Ben's really lucky. He took after his granddads, so he's very tall! :D I'm lucky also, I got him! Haha... ;)
Baby didn't give us a good view yesterday, but daddy heard the heartbeat. It was great, simply great.
Mich msged this morning about me having a sissy boy... coz we keep saying it's a girl, what if it's a boy? Well, must keep praying for the baby to love God and follow His ways! :D
Practicum starts tomorrow! Exciting... *holds breath*
Well, all the deadlines are over, and it's been a horrible time. I realise I'm a terrible procrastinator. For a task which i put off for 6 weeks, i finished them EXTREMELY quickly. Disgusting.
Oh, & I was supposed to hand my file over to my groupmate for compilation coz i finished earlier than she did, but after some advice, i decided to hang on for another hour and hand it in personally to the tutor. So i waited for this groupmate to finish her individual work (We had to hand in group and individual altogether in one folder), collect from her and submit it. Deadline was at 4.30pm, friday.
I arrived a couple of minutes before that at the tutor's office to meet her, didn't see her. Had a lil' chat with the tutor and waited for her to arrive. Still no sign. At 4.30, she called and said that she was having trouble printing her assignment! Sigh.
Can u imagine if the file was handed over to her? I think we'll get a penalty for tardiness. Argh.
Oh, I asked our tutor how she found our group's presentation. She said the idea was unique and different from the usual. But wat depends is how it's written coz nevertheless this is an Arts subject. WLE. And word count is impt. Gosh. I didn't adhere to the word count. Die... but I dun care anymore.
Just wanna get my credit for my practicum. ;) Crossover or not, I let God decide. It's attractive both ways. :)
Was swept off to a gorgeous weekend @ RCMS.
Drool... really great way to unwind after horrible deadlines and worries about putting undue stress on my baby... both in fact - the big one and the lil' one inside.
Ben redeemed our one night's stay coz of the wedding @ imperium, and boy are we glad we didn't use it on the dinner nite. Dunno how couples who hold their weddings @ hotels fully enjoy their stay. Check in at 12, busy busy busy, then dinner, then get harassed by friends, then oversleep the next morning. Eeeps.
We indulged ourselves in this...
Okie, so those two aren't us, but can't host the photos up. CENSORED!! hahahaha.... ;)
Well, before checking in, we went to the gynae. Baby stuffed itself in a corner. Looks like the both of us sleeping. I think the amount of stress must have shocked him/her that it needs to find security and comfort in a cozy corner. Hehehe... kicking & kicking throughout the scan. Everything's okie, baby apparently is a lil' long for its age but doc says it's okie. Well, look at daddy and mummy. I'll be in trouble if it's short. HEhehe.... but paternal granny and granpa not very tall, so possible also. Well, Ben's really lucky. He took after his granddads, so he's very tall! :D I'm lucky also, I got him! Haha... ;)
Baby didn't give us a good view yesterday, but daddy heard the heartbeat. It was great, simply great.
Mich msged this morning about me having a sissy boy... coz we keep saying it's a girl, what if it's a boy? Well, must keep praying for the baby to love God and follow His ways! :D
Practicum starts tomorrow! Exciting... *holds breath*
Well, all the deadlines are over, and it's been a horrible time. I realise I'm a terrible procrastinator. For a task which i put off for 6 weeks, i finished them EXTREMELY quickly. Disgusting.
Oh, & I was supposed to hand my file over to my groupmate for compilation coz i finished earlier than she did, but after some advice, i decided to hang on for another hour and hand it in personally to the tutor. So i waited for this groupmate to finish her individual work (We had to hand in group and individual altogether in one folder), collect from her and submit it. Deadline was at 4.30pm, friday.
I arrived a couple of minutes before that at the tutor's office to meet her, didn't see her. Had a lil' chat with the tutor and waited for her to arrive. Still no sign. At 4.30, she called and said that she was having trouble printing her assignment! Sigh.
Can u imagine if the file was handed over to her? I think we'll get a penalty for tardiness. Argh.
Oh, I asked our tutor how she found our group's presentation. She said the idea was unique and different from the usual. But wat depends is how it's written coz nevertheless this is an Arts subject. WLE. And word count is impt. Gosh. I didn't adhere to the word count. Die... but I dun care anymore.
Just wanna get my credit for my practicum. ;) Crossover or not, I let God decide. It's attractive both ways. :)
Friday, February 20, 2004
Husband Mart
I'm sure I stopped at the 4th floor at least... :)
A store that sells husbands has just opened in a top-secret location where women may go to choose a husband from among many men. The store comprises 6 floors, and the men increase in positive attributes as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch. As you open the door to any floor you may choose a man from that floor, but if you go up a floor, you cannot go back down except to exit the building.
So a woman goes to the shopping center to find a husband. On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs. The woman reads the sign and says to herself, "Well, that's better than my last boyfriend, but I wonder what's further up?" So up she goes.
The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs and love kids. The woman remarks to herself, "That's great, but I wonder what's further up?" And up she goes again.
The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love kids and are extremely good looking. "Hmmm, better." she says. "But I wonder what's upstairs?"
The fourth floor sign reads: Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking and help with the housework. "Wow!" exclaims the woman, "very tempting. BUT, there must be more further up!" And again she heads up another flight.
The fifth floor sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking, help with the housework and have a strong romantic streak. "Oh, mercy me! But just think... what must be awaiting me further on?"
So up to the sixth floor she goes. The sixth floor sign reads: Floor 6 - You are visitor 3,456,789,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.
Thank you for shopping Husband Mart!!
A store that sells husbands has just opened in a top-secret location where women may go to choose a husband from among many men. The store comprises 6 floors, and the men increase in positive attributes as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch. As you open the door to any floor you may choose a man from that floor, but if you go up a floor, you cannot go back down except to exit the building.
So a woman goes to the shopping center to find a husband. On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs. The woman reads the sign and says to herself, "Well, that's better than my last boyfriend, but I wonder what's further up?" So up she goes.
The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs and love kids. The woman remarks to herself, "That's great, but I wonder what's further up?" And up she goes again.
The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love kids and are extremely good looking. "Hmmm, better." she says. "But I wonder what's upstairs?"
The fourth floor sign reads: Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking and help with the housework. "Wow!" exclaims the woman, "very tempting. BUT, there must be more further up!" And again she heads up another flight.
The fifth floor sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking, help with the housework and have a strong romantic streak. "Oh, mercy me! But just think... what must be awaiting me further on?"
So up to the sixth floor she goes. The sixth floor sign reads: Floor 6 - You are visitor 3,456,789,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.
Thank you for shopping Husband Mart!!
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
A Lil' Distraction... humour me? :D
Planning to START on my assignments that are due TOMORROW! But before I start, was just thinking:
What are the must have baby stuff we need besides diapers & milk bottles? Pls pls clue me in... I dowanna overbuy, yet I'm sure I can't run to 7-Eleven in the middle of the nite to get one of the 'I-didn't-know-we-needed-to-get-that' must haves!
Okie. Starting work. Will update. (Almost finishing the group one... gosh. *No comments*)
What are the must have baby stuff we need besides diapers & milk bottles? Pls pls clue me in... I dowanna overbuy, yet I'm sure I can't run to 7-Eleven in the middle of the nite to get one of the 'I-didn't-know-we-needed-to-get-that' must haves!
Okie. Starting work. Will update. (Almost finishing the group one... gosh. *No comments*)
Monday, February 16, 2004
Final Week of the Semester
Had a nice lunch with mich babe today... went to see the bikinis. Nice! :D Tempted to get one also, but kept reminding myself of those that are still lying around in my drawer... sigh.
Spent $4 on lunch today! INCREDIBLE! Canteen chye png has never been this expensive, nor this much... haahah.. major glutton.
I need a wardrobe revamp. The maternity dresses which have been generously contributed by my aunts should stay as home wear. Seriously. I'm becoming a frumpy old maid. :P Today's attire was pretty gross - last min put together coz there was nothing decent hangin in the wardrobe. Need to go shopping before practicum starts!! Any takers?
Okie, agenda for tonite:
1. ECM First Draft - needs a ready to use page, rationale for the activity, the SIOs for the activity, the RUBRIC (***HELP!!!***) and a guide for the teacher to use. Shouldn't be too difficult. Difficult part lies in getting to the task.
2. Sleep.
Will go through the ECE SOWs tomorrow, should be okie liao. One absent groupmate called me on my mobile and we almost strangled each other. Thought I informed everyone that we're gonna use Sim Town, that girl went to evaluate Sim City Classic, say that she didn't know it was Sim Town, didn't know ABOUT Sim Town and kept asking why we couldn't use Sim City Classic. Sigh. The only thing I said was - Sim Town is designed for children. She whined abit, and whined about not being able to find the 2nd one. I was like, "FORGET IT. JUST GIVE THE DAMN THING TO ME AND I'LL GET IT DONE IN LESS TIME." She was supposed to submit on last thursday. But MIA. Also - today supposed to meet, she was on MC. Gosh. The other 2 and myself just kept pretty quiet, lah.
Have to do the reflection for the project... should be okie, except that i've gotta get the readings for week 1 done. It's quite painful reading Katz & Chard, esp when they are for younger kids - and this module is for upper primary. How suitable.
The review is waiting for me. Hope to get that done on wednesday. *fingers crossed* And no procrastinating. Hmm... but maybe a game or two of MSN Solitaire Showdown would inspire me to press on! :D Have been playing with a fren of mine, fun! :D
Going downstairs for dinner soon. Head feels strange - sleep lack. Argh. It's the panda look of the year again.
Spent $4 on lunch today! INCREDIBLE! Canteen chye png has never been this expensive, nor this much... haahah.. major glutton.
I need a wardrobe revamp. The maternity dresses which have been generously contributed by my aunts should stay as home wear. Seriously. I'm becoming a frumpy old maid. :P Today's attire was pretty gross - last min put together coz there was nothing decent hangin in the wardrobe. Need to go shopping before practicum starts!! Any takers?
Okie, agenda for tonite:
1. ECM First Draft - needs a ready to use page, rationale for the activity, the SIOs for the activity, the RUBRIC (***HELP!!!***) and a guide for the teacher to use. Shouldn't be too difficult. Difficult part lies in getting to the task.
2. Sleep.
Will go through the ECE SOWs tomorrow, should be okie liao. One absent groupmate called me on my mobile and we almost strangled each other. Thought I informed everyone that we're gonna use Sim Town, that girl went to evaluate Sim City Classic, say that she didn't know it was Sim Town, didn't know ABOUT Sim Town and kept asking why we couldn't use Sim City Classic. Sigh. The only thing I said was - Sim Town is designed for children. She whined abit, and whined about not being able to find the 2nd one. I was like, "FORGET IT. JUST GIVE THE DAMN THING TO ME AND I'LL GET IT DONE IN LESS TIME." She was supposed to submit on last thursday. But MIA. Also - today supposed to meet, she was on MC. Gosh. The other 2 and myself just kept pretty quiet, lah.
Have to do the reflection for the project... should be okie, except that i've gotta get the readings for week 1 done. It's quite painful reading Katz & Chard, esp when they are for younger kids - and this module is for upper primary. How suitable.
The review is waiting for me. Hope to get that done on wednesday. *fingers crossed* And no procrastinating. Hmm... but maybe a game or two of MSN Solitaire Showdown would inspire me to press on! :D Have been playing with a fren of mine, fun! :D
Going downstairs for dinner soon. Head feels strange - sleep lack. Argh. It's the panda look of the year again.
Sunday, February 15, 2004
Valentine's Day
I miss my girls. :'(
Sigh, Valentine's Day... Flowers? Romance? Music? Sex? Or spending time with loved ones, with family and friends? With God? Anyway, feel abit strange. The Valentine Aftermath. All the hooha for what?
Flowers are nice, but if they are given just for the sake of giving them, then they lose their meaning entirely. I prefer spontaneity. Spending time with loved ones? I'm not so sure. Sigh. Woke up feeling like ****, realising that for the whole blardy busy day yesterday, all my man did was look forward to staying at home and watching Season 2 of Smallville. Well, I've got work to occupy my mind. He chauffeured my family and myself all around singapore - Bro got discharged from TTSH for minor head injury, resting @ aunt's place now, mum's arm is injured coz she's consistently carrying heavy stuff to and fro sin-indo. So sent her to the Chinese physician. Some nerve affected or something. Apparently after his treatment my mum is able to lift her arm higher than before. Sent me to NIE to go borrow books coz of the bloody PW. Sigh. I've got around 6 working hours left to complete the first draft of the assignment - A to E. That's my goal for today.
My sir is still sleeping coz he had a solo Smallville marathon last nite, though we came back quite late. Now I regret introducing SV to him. Strange how I had been consistently having dreams of him been distant and harsh, but when he speaks my language of love - PT, the dream man becomes better, less distant, less harsh. But when he stops speaking it, the dream fella haunts me again with a bad aftertaste. Damn. Am i that spineless?
Met up with SL yesterday. Had a great time with her. MIL problems, she and hubby left home. Now staying @ her mum's place. Sigh. She's really gorgeous, and is an extremely NICE person. Very very very nice. And ONE HELLUVA sexy. Gonna catch up with her again before end of this week. She goes back to work on the 25th Feb :P and currently she's only a stone's throw away from NIE! Jurong West. Sigh. So close yet so far.
For us, Valentine's Day's been postponed to next Sat. At my request. Bloody deadlines. I was most touched when he told me that he wanted to make arrangements to make us of our one-night stay at Ritz Carlton, but was too late. (Well, it's the thought that counts, rite?) Fully booked. So I asked him to try for next week. Let's hope it happens.
Did i mention that he proposed to me last year on Valentine's Day? At the Ritz also.
Ok. I'm feeling quite down. Think it's because I woke up late, no breakfast and a horrible deadline. And church was painful yesterday. Left SL's place around 530 for 530 service - LATE. Arrived slightly past 6, sat down for pastor's sermon about tithing and i think in 40 mins time it was all over. Gosh. It felt like a lecture - no worship, nothing. Absolutely painful. And I've realised that J now belongs to the 'uncomfortable' people category. Namely 2 ex-bfs - 1 from Sin, the other from Perth (if he's even classed as bf) - and now her. People whom I cared for and later did me more harm than good.
Ok. Back to my work. Won't bit*h anymore.
Sigh, Valentine's Day... Flowers? Romance? Music? Sex? Or spending time with loved ones, with family and friends? With God? Anyway, feel abit strange. The Valentine Aftermath. All the hooha for what?
Flowers are nice, but if they are given just for the sake of giving them, then they lose their meaning entirely. I prefer spontaneity. Spending time with loved ones? I'm not so sure. Sigh. Woke up feeling like ****, realising that for the whole blardy busy day yesterday, all my man did was look forward to staying at home and watching Season 2 of Smallville. Well, I've got work to occupy my mind. He chauffeured my family and myself all around singapore - Bro got discharged from TTSH for minor head injury, resting @ aunt's place now, mum's arm is injured coz she's consistently carrying heavy stuff to and fro sin-indo. So sent her to the Chinese physician. Some nerve affected or something. Apparently after his treatment my mum is able to lift her arm higher than before. Sent me to NIE to go borrow books coz of the bloody PW. Sigh. I've got around 6 working hours left to complete the first draft of the assignment - A to E. That's my goal for today.
My sir is still sleeping coz he had a solo Smallville marathon last nite, though we came back quite late. Now I regret introducing SV to him. Strange how I had been consistently having dreams of him been distant and harsh, but when he speaks my language of love - PT, the dream man becomes better, less distant, less harsh. But when he stops speaking it, the dream fella haunts me again with a bad aftertaste. Damn. Am i that spineless?
Met up with SL yesterday. Had a great time with her. MIL problems, she and hubby left home. Now staying @ her mum's place. Sigh. She's really gorgeous, and is an extremely NICE person. Very very very nice. And ONE HELLUVA sexy. Gonna catch up with her again before end of this week. She goes back to work on the 25th Feb :P and currently she's only a stone's throw away from NIE! Jurong West. Sigh. So close yet so far.
For us, Valentine's Day's been postponed to next Sat. At my request. Bloody deadlines. I was most touched when he told me that he wanted to make arrangements to make us of our one-night stay at Ritz Carlton, but was too late. (Well, it's the thought that counts, rite?) Fully booked. So I asked him to try for next week. Let's hope it happens.
Did i mention that he proposed to me last year on Valentine's Day? At the Ritz also.
Ok. I'm feeling quite down. Think it's because I woke up late, no breakfast and a horrible deadline. And church was painful yesterday. Left SL's place around 530 for 530 service - LATE. Arrived slightly past 6, sat down for pastor's sermon about tithing and i think in 40 mins time it was all over. Gosh. It felt like a lecture - no worship, nothing. Absolutely painful. And I've realised that J now belongs to the 'uncomfortable' people category. Namely 2 ex-bfs - 1 from Sin, the other from Perth (if he's even classed as bf) - and now her. People whom I cared for and later did me more harm than good.
Ok. Back to my work. Won't bit*h anymore.
Thursday, February 12, 2004
But then again...
I've finally finally started on my long overdue ECE reading - so now i have an inkling of an idea of what's going to go on. Yah. I'm totally out of the picture, that's why Mich babe, I haven't been able to help. Seriously, if u see the current work level, it's just pure excretion. Gimme some time, and I'll figure the nutrition in the excretion. It's THAT bad. Let's just put it this way - we're totally off track, and no one in the group knows what's happening. I do Part A, 2 gurls do Part B and the last one Part C. But then Part C is totally blur and passive. I'm TRYING TO BE NICE!!!!! Okie, sorry i'm spending time bitching. Thou shall not bitch about groupmates. It's unethical.
Back to work.
Back to work.
Pui.
Supposed to meet my ece group online at 9.30pm. It's 10.10pm. And no one's around yet. I GIVE UP. :P Emailed them, still being really nice. Sigh. ONE MORE WEEK. GOD, HELP ME. :'(
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Proud to be a Chinese
A Chinese man walks into a bank in New York City and asks for the loan officer.
He tells the loan officer that he is going to China on business for two weeks and needs to borrow $5,000. The bank officer tells him that the bank will need some form of security for the loan, so the Chinese man hands over the keys to a new Ferrari parked on the street in front of the bank.
He produces the title and everything checks out. The loan officer agrees to accept the car as collateral for the loan. The bank's president and its officers all enjoy a good laugh at the Chinese for using a $250,000 Ferrari as collateral against a $5,000 loan.
An employee of the bank then drives the Ferrari into the bank's underground garage and parks it there.
Two weeks later, the Chinese returns, repays the $5,000 and the interest, which comes to $15.41. The loan officer says, "Sir, we are very happy to have had your business, and this transaction has worked out very nicely, but we are a little puzzled. While you were away, we checked you out and found that you are a multi-millionaire. What puzzles us is, why would you bother to borrow $5,000?"
The Chinese replies:
"Where else in New York City can I park my car for 2 weeks for only $15.41 and Expect it to be there when I return?"
He tells the loan officer that he is going to China on business for two weeks and needs to borrow $5,000. The bank officer tells him that the bank will need some form of security for the loan, so the Chinese man hands over the keys to a new Ferrari parked on the street in front of the bank.
He produces the title and everything checks out. The loan officer agrees to accept the car as collateral for the loan. The bank's president and its officers all enjoy a good laugh at the Chinese for using a $250,000 Ferrari as collateral against a $5,000 loan.
An employee of the bank then drives the Ferrari into the bank's underground garage and parks it there.
Two weeks later, the Chinese returns, repays the $5,000 and the interest, which comes to $15.41. The loan officer says, "Sir, we are very happy to have had your business, and this transaction has worked out very nicely, but we are a little puzzled. While you were away, we checked you out and found that you are a multi-millionaire. What puzzles us is, why would you bother to borrow $5,000?"
The Chinese replies:
"Where else in New York City can I park my car for 2 weeks for only $15.41 and Expect it to be there when I return?"
Argh...
A day of headaches. Headache in the morning, headache in the afternoon. Yesterday was buttache. Argh. Tried to sleep it off, right side of head still hurts though. Had strange strange dreams. In one, dreamt of quite a nice big but cozy place with this babe who's got a fetish for guys doing devotions. *WEIRD* So when she suggested that i do my devotion (I think in that dream I was a guy), i lashed out big time at her! (it's just a summary)
Next dream, dreamt that i 'eloped' with an ex and the gf to the States. (The one who attended the dinner - dun think too hard, there was only 1.) It was really really strange. Mum and bro went as well. Jean Danker (?????) was supposed to be the ex's new gf, but disappeared halfway, replaced by the original girlfriend. Met at King Albert Park for take off (????) in kinda like an Austin-Powers airplane with no airplane seats but restaurant seating. Felt damn grossed out at the thought of eloping with the both of them (a 3some?? Argh.) My mind was filled with Ben, missed him so much, bashing myself up for agreeing to go, regretted not tellin' Ben that I left the house - he was expecting to see me when he got home tonite, didn't take leave with NIE/MOE, got classes on Monday and tons of other worries. Mum was on the plane also, said was going to return home at the end of the month. Jean Danker was in a cab with me - i asked her if she took leave, and she mentioned that she'd been given a job offer by a fren's mum one year ago, and it's still open. (irrelevant eh?) then she said she didn't. Finally, after reaching US, I took the next 'flight' back (it took like about 1-2hrs only) (???) and when I arrived, we landed at the petrol kiosk along Bt Timah Road. Left my bag at the 2nd level of the plane, the 'driver', this malay guy, refused to open up for me, cursed at me, and i cursed him back. but i did tell him that if i found that my bag wasn't up there, i'd apologise to him. Then some1 brought me my bag. I apologised. See? I'm nice.
Got off the plane and think i was about to take a cab home with a couple of old ladies... staying in siglap or something. Think they were my CTs.
Strange dreams eh?
Next dream, dreamt that i 'eloped' with an ex and the gf to the States. (The one who attended the dinner - dun think too hard, there was only 1.) It was really really strange. Mum and bro went as well. Jean Danker (?????) was supposed to be the ex's new gf, but disappeared halfway, replaced by the original girlfriend. Met at King Albert Park for take off (????) in kinda like an Austin-Powers airplane with no airplane seats but restaurant seating. Felt damn grossed out at the thought of eloping with the both of them (a 3some?? Argh.) My mind was filled with Ben, missed him so much, bashing myself up for agreeing to go, regretted not tellin' Ben that I left the house - he was expecting to see me when he got home tonite, didn't take leave with NIE/MOE, got classes on Monday and tons of other worries. Mum was on the plane also, said was going to return home at the end of the month. Jean Danker was in a cab with me - i asked her if she took leave, and she mentioned that she'd been given a job offer by a fren's mum one year ago, and it's still open. (irrelevant eh?) then she said she didn't. Finally, after reaching US, I took the next 'flight' back (it took like about 1-2hrs only) (???) and when I arrived, we landed at the petrol kiosk along Bt Timah Road. Left my bag at the 2nd level of the plane, the 'driver', this malay guy, refused to open up for me, cursed at me, and i cursed him back. but i did tell him that if i found that my bag wasn't up there, i'd apologise to him. Then some1 brought me my bag. I apologised. See? I'm nice.
Got off the plane and think i was about to take a cab home with a couple of old ladies... staying in siglap or something. Think they were my CTs.
Strange dreams eh?
Owww...
At first it felt like a pinched nerve. Then it has blossomed into a fist shaped bruised feeling at the base of my spine. Ouch. Can't sit long, think bag is too heavy.
Slept for 3 hrs respectively for the past two nites. Tried sleeping @ 5pm to 7 this evening, but got even more frustrated. Bloody hot even with the a/c on. Asked ben about it. Forgot that we face the east and the west, so it was the evening sun that tried to sizzle the a/c compressor. Not funny. :P
Completed my EED assignment. Argued against a male trainee today coz he wanted to skive and put the blame on the class. It was bad enuff that we couldn't bring laptop with wireless card (tutor thinks we dun want to) so she had to modify the lesson. Then this joker asks to 'negotiate' coz 'we've got lots of work/we've done this b4 (yeah rite)/we're gonna do it anyway for our project so it's double work/the time is better spent doing our project (who's he to decide?)/and a whole load of other crap. I spoke up, told the tut we're willin' to do it (coz she spent 2 hrs in the lib searching for resources for us to evaluate) and coz it's part of her responsibility to conduct this activity! Think about it - 6 weeks of school and the EL dept devotes 1 week (that's 4hrs) to this topic, and this joker wants her to scrap it? She's already been so nice - coz we din have the laptop, so she just took 1/2 hr to go thru the lecture with us, distribute the multimedia resource for us to evaluate and dismissed us -and come back on thursday for a 2-hr session just to present our evaluation. Scrap it? Why not NOT come to NIE at all? :P Sorry, blame the hormones, but that guys was just too much. Take advantage of old lady. Pui.
Anyway, people were glad that he was spoken against (i think there was one other who spoke up against him too) and he din seem to happy when he left. Hullo, this fella does over-the-top-work that tries to 'spoil market' then complain there's too much work. Sigh. People use transparency, he uses multipaged Word to present. A for effort, but dun blame the rest when skiving is desired. Like we dun have the ece assignment to contend with.
Had dinner with mum tonite. Disposable diapers or nappy? She said something that made perfect sense. Diapers make the baby feel one helluva good, and cause no complaints - thus everyone's happy. Problem comes during toilet training. They wouldn't know how to express when to go (like a young cozzie i haf whose mum thinks he's unable to do it) but they are so comfortable (in pee at least) that they dun have to say anything, unless it's the big one.
But, if it's nappy, once it's wet, it's uncomfortable and the kid would make noise. Once the association is established, it's much easier for them to associate where the wetness comes from and how to prevent it. It's just an earlier awareness i guess, for kids who aren't all that bright. (No dad, that's not flauwer, it's a special orchid called Dendrobium harveyanum.) :p
Well, smelly and dirty nappies for home then disposables when we go out. It's indeed cheaper. Hmm. I think I'll sleep over it.
Well, prac's at Temasek once again and Jamie spoke to me today. After that 'formal' conversation, i ran off and she called out for me not to run! I'm touched. :) Really.
Two more weeks, or rather, 4 more school days for me.
This thursday, next monday, tuesday and thursday (ELE/UET 3 min talk and lab test). BUT - FRIDAY - ECM DUE AND ECE DUE - individual and group for the latter. And I HAVEN'T STARTED. Oh, EED due on 24th April. It's a sweet semester. :)
Slept for 3 hrs respectively for the past two nites. Tried sleeping @ 5pm to 7 this evening, but got even more frustrated. Bloody hot even with the a/c on. Asked ben about it. Forgot that we face the east and the west, so it was the evening sun that tried to sizzle the a/c compressor. Not funny. :P
Completed my EED assignment. Argued against a male trainee today coz he wanted to skive and put the blame on the class. It was bad enuff that we couldn't bring laptop with wireless card (tutor thinks we dun want to) so she had to modify the lesson. Then this joker asks to 'negotiate' coz 'we've got lots of work/we've done this b4 (yeah rite)/we're gonna do it anyway for our project so it's double work/the time is better spent doing our project (who's he to decide?)/and a whole load of other crap. I spoke up, told the tut we're willin' to do it (coz she spent 2 hrs in the lib searching for resources for us to evaluate) and coz it's part of her responsibility to conduct this activity! Think about it - 6 weeks of school and the EL dept devotes 1 week (that's 4hrs) to this topic, and this joker wants her to scrap it? She's already been so nice - coz we din have the laptop, so she just took 1/2 hr to go thru the lecture with us, distribute the multimedia resource for us to evaluate and dismissed us -and come back on thursday for a 2-hr session just to present our evaluation. Scrap it? Why not NOT come to NIE at all? :P Sorry, blame the hormones, but that guys was just too much. Take advantage of old lady. Pui.
Anyway, people were glad that he was spoken against (i think there was one other who spoke up against him too) and he din seem to happy when he left. Hullo, this fella does over-the-top-work that tries to 'spoil market' then complain there's too much work. Sigh. People use transparency, he uses multipaged Word to present. A for effort, but dun blame the rest when skiving is desired. Like we dun have the ece assignment to contend with.
Had dinner with mum tonite. Disposable diapers or nappy? She said something that made perfect sense. Diapers make the baby feel one helluva good, and cause no complaints - thus everyone's happy. Problem comes during toilet training. They wouldn't know how to express when to go (like a young cozzie i haf whose mum thinks he's unable to do it) but they are so comfortable (in pee at least) that they dun have to say anything, unless it's the big one.
But, if it's nappy, once it's wet, it's uncomfortable and the kid would make noise. Once the association is established, it's much easier for them to associate where the wetness comes from and how to prevent it. It's just an earlier awareness i guess, for kids who aren't all that bright. (No dad, that's not flauwer, it's a special orchid called Dendrobium harveyanum.) :p
Well, smelly and dirty nappies for home then disposables when we go out. It's indeed cheaper. Hmm. I think I'll sleep over it.
Well, prac's at Temasek once again and Jamie spoke to me today. After that 'formal' conversation, i ran off and she called out for me not to run! I'm touched. :) Really.
Two more weeks, or rather, 4 more school days for me.
This thursday, next monday, tuesday and thursday (ELE/UET 3 min talk and lab test). BUT - FRIDAY - ECM DUE AND ECE DUE - individual and group for the latter. And I HAVEN'T STARTED. Oh, EED due on 24th April. It's a sweet semester. :)
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Got this from a dear fren...
Disciplining Your Mind
by Joyce Meyer
In what condition is your mind? Have you noticed that the condition of your mind changes? One time you may be calm, peaceful, and certain of yourself. Another time you're anxious, worried, and insecure. There have been times in my own life when I have experienced these things. There have been times when I seemed to be able to make a decision and stick with it. I could make up my mind easily. Then there have been other times when I couldn't seem to arrive at a decision at all. Doubt, fear, and uncertainty haunted me mercilessly. I second-guessed myself and could not make up my mind.
I did not know that I could do anything about my thought life. I thought I was destined to be indecisive. I believed in God and had for many years but I had no teaching at all about my thought life or about the proper condition for a believer's mind. Years ago, when I began to get a lot more serious about my relationship with the Lord, I learned that many of my problems with indecision were rooted in wrong thinking patterns. My mind was undisciplined. It was a mess! I doubt that it was ever in the condition it should have been and if it was, it did not last long.
I felt overwhelmed when I began to see how indecisive and insecure I was. I tried hard to correct the problem by rejecting the wrong thoughts that came into my mind, but they were persistent.
Many people struggle with this because they have spent years allowing their minds to wander. They've never applied the principles of discipline to their thought lives. People who can't seem to concentrate long enough to make a decision think there is something wrong with their mind. However, the inability to concentrate and settle on a decision can be the result of years of simply letting the mind do whatever it wants to do.
I struggled with this lack of ability to concentrate for years. When a strong decision was called for in my life, I found that I wasn't confident or disciplined enough to step out and make that choice. My mind was undisciplined and wandered from the subject at hand. I had to train my mind through discipline. It was not easy, and sometimes I still have relapses. While trying to complete a project, I will suddenly realize that my mind has just wandered off onto something else that has absolutely nothing to do with the issue at hand. I have not yet arrived at a place of perfect concentration, but at least I understand how important it is not to allow my mind to go wherever it wishes, whenever it desires.
Many times your mind can wander off even during conversation. There are times when my husband, Dave, is talking to me and I listen for a while then all of a sudden I realize that I have not heard a thing he's been saying. Why? Because I allowed my mind to wander off on something else. My body was standing there appearing to listen, but in my mind, I didn't hear a thing. For many years, when this sort of thing happened, I pretended that I knew exactly what Dave was saying. Now I simply stop and say, "Can you back up and repeat that? I let my mind wander off, and I didn't hear a thing you said." In this way, I am dealing with the problem. I am disciplining my mind to stay on track. Confronting these issues is the only way to get on the victorious side of them.
Remember, the mind is the battlefield for these daily battles. Indecision and uncertainty are just results of losing these critical battles, and can cause you to think there is something wrong with your mind. But the truth is your mind just needs to be disciplined. Ask God to help you and then refuse to allow your mind to think about whatever it pleases. Begin today to control your thoughts and to keep your mind on what you're doing. You'll need to practice for a while breaking old habits and forming new ones always takes time. Discipline is never easy, but it's always worth it in the end. When you win the battle for your mind, you'll be much more certain of yourself and you'll be able to make up your mind with confidence.
Copyright ©1998-2002 Life In The Word, Inc./Joyce Meyer Ministries.
All rights reserved.
by Joyce Meyer
In what condition is your mind? Have you noticed that the condition of your mind changes? One time you may be calm, peaceful, and certain of yourself. Another time you're anxious, worried, and insecure. There have been times in my own life when I have experienced these things. There have been times when I seemed to be able to make a decision and stick with it. I could make up my mind easily. Then there have been other times when I couldn't seem to arrive at a decision at all. Doubt, fear, and uncertainty haunted me mercilessly. I second-guessed myself and could not make up my mind.
I did not know that I could do anything about my thought life. I thought I was destined to be indecisive. I believed in God and had for many years but I had no teaching at all about my thought life or about the proper condition for a believer's mind. Years ago, when I began to get a lot more serious about my relationship with the Lord, I learned that many of my problems with indecision were rooted in wrong thinking patterns. My mind was undisciplined. It was a mess! I doubt that it was ever in the condition it should have been and if it was, it did not last long.
I felt overwhelmed when I began to see how indecisive and insecure I was. I tried hard to correct the problem by rejecting the wrong thoughts that came into my mind, but they were persistent.
Many people struggle with this because they have spent years allowing their minds to wander. They've never applied the principles of discipline to their thought lives. People who can't seem to concentrate long enough to make a decision think there is something wrong with their mind. However, the inability to concentrate and settle on a decision can be the result of years of simply letting the mind do whatever it wants to do.
I struggled with this lack of ability to concentrate for years. When a strong decision was called for in my life, I found that I wasn't confident or disciplined enough to step out and make that choice. My mind was undisciplined and wandered from the subject at hand. I had to train my mind through discipline. It was not easy, and sometimes I still have relapses. While trying to complete a project, I will suddenly realize that my mind has just wandered off onto something else that has absolutely nothing to do with the issue at hand. I have not yet arrived at a place of perfect concentration, but at least I understand how important it is not to allow my mind to go wherever it wishes, whenever it desires.
Many times your mind can wander off even during conversation. There are times when my husband, Dave, is talking to me and I listen for a while then all of a sudden I realize that I have not heard a thing he's been saying. Why? Because I allowed my mind to wander off on something else. My body was standing there appearing to listen, but in my mind, I didn't hear a thing. For many years, when this sort of thing happened, I pretended that I knew exactly what Dave was saying. Now I simply stop and say, "Can you back up and repeat that? I let my mind wander off, and I didn't hear a thing you said." In this way, I am dealing with the problem. I am disciplining my mind to stay on track. Confronting these issues is the only way to get on the victorious side of them.
Remember, the mind is the battlefield for these daily battles. Indecision and uncertainty are just results of losing these critical battles, and can cause you to think there is something wrong with your mind. But the truth is your mind just needs to be disciplined. Ask God to help you and then refuse to allow your mind to think about whatever it pleases. Begin today to control your thoughts and to keep your mind on what you're doing. You'll need to practice for a while breaking old habits and forming new ones always takes time. Discipline is never easy, but it's always worth it in the end. When you win the battle for your mind, you'll be much more certain of yourself and you'll be able to make up your mind with confidence.
Copyright ©1998-2002 Life In The Word, Inc./Joyce Meyer Ministries.
All rights reserved.
Pray Pray Pray...
Tomorrow my fate is revealed. Practicum posting. God I pray that You'll grant me favour with the children, their parents, my CT, my SCM, the P & VP and my new sup!!! I commit every lesson into Your hands, and may Your Holy Spirit lead me in Your path. Teach me to be bold and courageous. And be firm and loving. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Reflection
Surfed around and found this site. Dunno the source, but what particularly hit me was this question, "Do I really have to go to church?" Seems like we all have trivalised going to church. Some of us go coz if we don't, we don't feel good. Or if we do, at least we've done something we're supposed to do. We don't get involved, coz we're not comfortable. We do because it gets us off the hook and our leaders off our backs. But that isn't supposed to be the way. Going to church is not about us. It's about Him. Not just a religious Him & I thingey. It's more than that.
It was not just about praying in their prayer closets and then acknowledging these other people, "Well, they are Christians, too. I'm going to live for God, and they are going to live for God. So, we ought to at least try to get along and attend something together regularly.î That isn't how the believers 2,000 years ago viewed the Church.
My spiritual life is in the doldrums. Gone are the days where passsion for God ruled. Or either that, it isn't even here yet. Read 1 Samuel today, and the commentary contrasted between Samuel the prophet and Saul the king. Samuel was obedient, consistent and had a deep desire for God's will. He had a deep desire for God. In contrast, Saul's life was marked by disobedience, inconsistency and self-will. He did not have a heart for God.
When God called Samuel, he said, "Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening." (3:9). But when God, through Samual, called Saul, Saul replied, "Why do you say such a thing to me?" (9:2). Saul was dedicated to himself. Samuel was dedicated to God.
I know what characterises my life. And it ain't Samuel's traits.
Anywayz, Abigail is quite a fantastic woman in the bible. She's found in 1 Sam 25. Gosh. I bet King David must have stopped (in his fury) to listen to her coz she was gorgeous... :P~~~ and terribly wise as well. :D
It was not just about praying in their prayer closets and then acknowledging these other people, "Well, they are Christians, too. I'm going to live for God, and they are going to live for God. So, we ought to at least try to get along and attend something together regularly.î That isn't how the believers 2,000 years ago viewed the Church.
My spiritual life is in the doldrums. Gone are the days where passsion for God ruled. Or either that, it isn't even here yet. Read 1 Samuel today, and the commentary contrasted between Samuel the prophet and Saul the king. Samuel was obedient, consistent and had a deep desire for God's will. He had a deep desire for God. In contrast, Saul's life was marked by disobedience, inconsistency and self-will. He did not have a heart for God.
When God called Samuel, he said, "Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening." (3:9). But when God, through Samual, called Saul, Saul replied, "Why do you say such a thing to me?" (9:2). Saul was dedicated to himself. Samuel was dedicated to God.
I know what characterises my life. And it ain't Samuel's traits.
Anywayz, Abigail is quite a fantastic woman in the bible. She's found in 1 Sam 25. Gosh. I bet King David must have stopped (in his fury) to listen to her coz she was gorgeous... :P~~~ and terribly wise as well. :D
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
Yippee!
We KICKED ASS today!!! "It was splendid!" commented the tutor. Woohoo! But. Not graded. Nevertheless, we still collected info to dump into our portfolio. Praise the Lord. For a fun time, interesting but great & eager teammates, for a smooth presentation, for inspiration, for co-operative tut-mates (it would have flopped terribly if they didn't participate), and for Him! :D
I'm sleepy.
Went to the doc's to collect medication. Damn. It's a huge mess. Pray pray pray.
I'm sleepy.
Went to the doc's to collect medication. Damn. It's a huge mess. Pray pray pray.
Monday, February 02, 2004
Hari Raya Haji Rumble
The war against McDonald's continues... and I've always thought that adding more veg would ease my conscience...
Just came back from groupmate's place. Gosh. I've never met up soooooo many times (including the times I was out of action) for a project. And this presentation doesn't even have any weightage. Yup, it's Social Context. :P We've/They've met up practically almost everyday for the past week, and for one day which I couldn't make it, they met from 1pm till 9. Gosh. And online meetings somemore. till 2am. Thank God I'm pregnant. And half the time I couldn't understand what's going on. ok. I'm stufid. And I'm glad I am. Hah. No lah, not that i'm complaining, really glad that everything worked out without any major showdown as predicted by others, and almost everything would be over by tomorrow's presentation. Just that the real work begins then.
Gosh. I'm lazy.
I've still got my English project pretty untouched - working with 3 malay girls. So far so good. Thank God. Totally ill-prepared for tutorial tomorrow. Homework not done, readings not read. Not good.
Maths is another chore for me. What on earth is Mathematical Investigation Task? I'm lost. Oh, am I'm supposed to submit my file.
Gosh. I'm hungry.
Just came back from groupmate's place. Gosh. I've never met up soooooo many times (including the times I was out of action) for a project. And this presentation doesn't even have any weightage. Yup, it's Social Context. :P We've/They've met up practically almost everyday for the past week, and for one day which I couldn't make it, they met from 1pm till 9. Gosh. And online meetings somemore. till 2am. Thank God I'm pregnant. And half the time I couldn't understand what's going on. ok. I'm stufid. And I'm glad I am. Hah. No lah, not that i'm complaining, really glad that everything worked out without any major showdown as predicted by others, and almost everything would be over by tomorrow's presentation. Just that the real work begins then.
Gosh. I'm lazy.
I've still got my English project pretty untouched - working with 3 malay girls. So far so good. Thank God. Totally ill-prepared for tutorial tomorrow. Homework not done, readings not read. Not good.
Maths is another chore for me. What on earth is Mathematical Investigation Task? I'm lost. Oh, am I'm supposed to submit my file.
Gosh. I'm hungry.
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